Well, it's official.... Michael and I are so excited to share the news that our little family is getting a bit bigger in February!! Le bébé Hogge va arriver finalement! Having shared our struggle with infertility earlier this year, it's been difficult to know exactly where to start with this blog post. It feels nothing short of miraculous to be on this side of the fence, and part of me is still coming to terms with the fact that it is actually happening. At around 17 weeks pregnant, I am well into my second trimester. In the beginning, I had all the classic symptoms of pregnancy, with the strongest probably being complete and utter exhaustion. The couch was my new BFF. Food cravings mostly involved french fries, grapes and gummy candy. I was eating like a linebacker, mostly to curb the nausea, and my sense of smell went full bloodhound. These days, I am feeling much better and have gotten a lot of my energy back. I think the moment when it really felt real to both me and Michael was the first trimester ultrasound, where we got to see the little one dancing around in my belly for about 30 minutes. I couldn't actually feel any of the movement because it's still too tiny, but we got to spend time actual time hanging out with our baby, whose heart we could hear racing over 160 beats per minute. I understand fully why people call this a miracle... I cannot finish this post without without acknowledging what we came through to get here. Infertility is a very particular kind of pain to endure, mostly silently. And I know all too well that every new pregnancy announcement from family, friends or total strangers seems to etch a new micro-fracture of disappointment in the heart. I read a quote the other day that said something like, "I'm happy for you, but just sad for me," and I realize that some reading this today will feel exactly that way. My sincere hope is that you will soon find the same miracle that we have, biologically or otherwise.
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